Meghan Markle reveals that she was suicidal during her royal days.

One of the most heartbreaking and raw moments in Oprah Winfrey's CBS interview with Meghan Markle (opens in new tab) was when the Duchess of Sussex revealed her struggles with mental health, namely facing suicidal thoughts and ideation during her time as an active royal It was.

The revelation occurred when Winfrey asked Markle about the impact on her of the media's often racist and unforgiving treatment and lack of support and protection from The Firm (open in new tab).

"I just couldn't find a solution. I couldn't sleep at night. I was just breathing and everything was happening," Megan said.

"I was embarrassed to say it at the time, and especially embarrassed to have to admit it to Harry. But I knew if I didn't tell him, I would do it. I didn't want to live anymore. It was so clear, so real, so horrible. I knew that if I did that, everything would be all right for everyone."

Princess Meghan added that she went to "one of the most senior people" at the "facility" and asked to go somewhere for treatment and help, but was told no because "it wouldn't be good for the facility." She also went to the personnel department at the Palace to "beg" for help, but was told that even though she was heartbroken for Meghan, who was pregnant at the time, she could not help because "she is not a paid employee of the facility."

She also revealed that when she arrived in England, her passport, driver's license, and keys were turned over to the palace, so she could not ask for help herself or escape the situation.

Markle also said that on the same day she shared her suicidal thoughts with Harry, on the steps of their cottage, they had to go to an official function at the Royal Albert Hall. With tears streaming down her face, she explained that she attended with her husband because she feared he might hurt himself if left home alone. 'Every time the lights went down in the Royal Box, I just cried,' she said. You never know what is happening to someone behind closed doors."

Later, when Prince Harry participated in an interview, Oprah asked him what this revelation was like for him at the time. Harry explained how the trauma of Princess Meghan and his inability to offer immediate support affected him: "I didn't know what to do. I wasn't prepared. I felt very gloomy too. I wanted to be there for her."

Harry revealed that he felt he could not ask his family for help." There would be no such conversation. I think he was embarrassed to admit [that he needed help from Princess Meghan]. There is a mentality in the family that this is the reality. They can't change it. But his wife's anguish felt very similar to what his mother faced (open in new tab). (Princess Diana suffered from an eating disorder and suicidal thoughts.)

"My biggest concern was that history would repeat itself," Harry said. Interestingly, Meghan revealed that it was one of Princess Diana's closest friends who supported Meghan and provided friendship and advice during these years." Who else could understand what it is really like on the inside?" Meghan said of that unnamed close friend.

Harry and Markle also said that ultimately, the decision (open in new tab) to step down from royal life saved Meghan's life.

The conversation ended on a positive note, with Markle saying that she feels stronger and more hopeful about the future, and that she and Harry are now not only surviving, but thriving. 'It takes a lot of courage to admit you need help. I am still standing. What I hope people take away from this is to know that there is another side. And I want them to know that life is worth living. "

If you or someone you know is at risk, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (opens in new tab) at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or text HOME to 741741 and Crisis Text Line (opens in new tab) to message a trained crisis counselor for free.

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